Friends: New and Old

Hey everyone! I hope you all had a Merry Christmas and scored all the great stuff you wanted! By the way, this is Allie, I am sitting here with Dustin and we decided to post but I wanted to say a few words. Dustin and I have both been reflecting on this time of year and we decided to write a post about how grateful we are for the friendships we share. At my pajama party, I realized that even a semester hasn't changed how tight we all are. It is at this time of year that Dustin and I are taking a moment to thank everyone for all the great times that we have shared as friends. For the nights that we sat around and just ate pizza(Brett and Tracy) for the interpretive dances(Amy and Abby) and for all the other memories that have proven how close we really are. Everyone is wondering about how Dustin and I can still be so close even though we are both in relationships with other people. Well, we have decided that what really comprised a large majority of our relationship was a deep, beautiful friendship. And that doesn't change with time. That is what great friends are about: always caring about each other no matter the distance or situation. So thanks for all the memories and for all the moments that have shaped who we are today as people. We love you and I(Allie) am glad to be back for a short walk down memory lane!

Alexandria Hill and Dustin Brandon

I'm Only Gonna Say This Once

I do not think that if you drink you are a horrible person. I think that it is each person's individual decision as to the things that they wish to do, and whatever you do choose does not make you a good person or a bad person. I do however take offense to people thinking that I would pass that kind of judgment on someone else, even my best friend. I'm sorry if I have made anyone feel bad about the things that they do or whatever. However, the comments like "dude just come to the party, you don't have to drink" or "dude you can just have one drink right, that's not a big deal" have the same affect on me. Those comments make me feel like I am STUPID for choosing to give up that lifestyle and that the standards and rules that I now choose to obey are ridiculous. And believe it or not, it even sometimes makes me feel like I'm not cool anymore, or at least not as cool as I used to be. I have heard what some people have said about me at these parties. "The cool Dustin would be here partying with us right now". But that's ok, because I believe very strongly in what I am doing and I'm not concerned about what other people think. I am, however, concerned that this is coming between a group of really good friends. Now you guys know where I stand and I know where you stand, so let's just put that all aside and not let this petty disagreement come between us. I still care about each and every one of you, and I don't want to lose friends over something so stupid. That's all I'm going to say.

Anna

This is in reference to my last post, for those of you who don't know who Anna Kournikova is. Well, there you go, now you know who she is. In fact, I think that Anna is going to replace Mischa as the hottie of this blog. Some of my readers were a little critical of Mischa, so I challenge anyone to find something wrong with Anna. Plus she plays tennis, and that is always a good thing. Come to think of it, why didn't I post pics of her sooner?

Finally Got One

I couldn't resist the temptation anymore. I had to get one, it's like it was calling my name. I guess I just got a little tired of the PS2 after more than a year, and I needed something a little different. What's great now is that I have both a PS2 and an X-Box, so it's like, the best of both worlds! So far I only have the two games that came with it, but that has proved to be enough to keep me occupied for the time being. The games are NCAA football 2005 and Topspin Tennis. Topspin Tennis is such an amazing game. I've spent most of my free time the past couple of days just playing that game. The gameplay is so realistic. Not to mention the fact that Anna Kournikova is in the game. I think that's all I have to say about that. I don't think, however, that I am going to purchase Halo or Halo 2. Never really been a big fan of those games so I think I'll put my money towards something I will enjoy more. So anyway, anyone who wants to have a video game night or whatever, just let me know and we'll X-Box it up.

Epiphany

I just had one. And it was so strong that I couldn't wait to share it with everyone. As much as I have experienced and thought I understood love, I, as of about ten minutes ago, just figured out what it means to love someone. I mean REALLY figured out what it is to REALLY love someone. It goes so much further than just a feeling, or an emotion that is inside you. When you love someone, it means that you will do anything for that person. You will do whatever you can do to make them as happy as possible, even if it is not beneficial to you. Love is a selfless act, or at least the true form of love is. You feel so deeply for a person that you can't imagine doing something to them that will cause them any amount of pain or unhappiness. You always put that person's needs ahead of your own, and you are always willing to sacrifice for that person. If you truly love someone, you will always feel like you aren't doing enough for them, and that there is always something more that you could be doing to make them happy. Love is a strong attachment or devotion to someone. It means that you are dedicated to a person, for better or for worse, and that there is no force on the earth that can break that attachment. Wow. We should all be so lucky to experience this feeling in our lives, and to know what it's like to willingly sacrifice something that is important to you or something that you really want to do because you care so much about a person. So here's to love, the most unselfish feeling that you will ever know.

Tired Of...

I'm tired of people who try to be something that they are not. It really bothers me when the world sees someone one way and then a select people see them the way they really are. And what's even worse is when the world's perception of that person is great, but if they knew what those few people who knew him do then they might change their opinions. I just get tired of that. Maybe I'm just tired in general. I've only been able to get at the most 4 hours of sleep in the past two days. I probably won't even remember posting this. But the point is that we should always stay true to who we are and never let the pressures of the world shape who we become.

Finished

That's right. I just finished the last homework assignment for the semester. I feel so, free. Like I have accomplished something. I have been working on this stupid assignment all night. It's this portfolio that I have to put together of all the work and projects that I have done all semester in my English class. So I had all my projects and stuff in order, printed out all nice, hole punched, and ready to put into my portfolio. Then I realized that I didn't have the right binder that I needed or tabs to separate the projects. So this was like, almost 2 in the morning. So where did I go? The only place open at 2 in the morning, Wal-Mart! So Wal-Mart saved the day for me this time. Now I've got everything in there all nice and neat and everything is complete. I'll probably still get a bad grade. Oh well. Now all I have to worry about is studying for the three finals that I have next week and then I'm completely done. I didn't think I was going to make it through this semester, but here we are and now it's almost over. First semester of college over. One eighth of the way done with college. I suddenly feel depressed again. SCHOOL SUCKS!!!!!!!! Sometimes I wish that we had a remote control for our lives, you know. So then we could fast forward through all this school stuff, or rewind anytime we are feeling nostalgic. And then we could pause the great moments and remain in them for as long as we wanted. That would be so cool. Not to mention that anytime you are tired of hearing someone complain or just sick of someone's voice, you could mute them. I guess I'm going to try to get some sleep. Only one more day of class!!!!!!


This is me before finishing the last homework of the semester.